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I am a 28 year old new mom building a blog to reach other mom’s or women that relate to my story. I never imagined the life that I have today, I come from a crazy rough background that most would not believe even if I tried to explain it real slow. Growing up, it was all about church and religion which I will say in some way did help me find my moral compass but not in the way most would think when you hear religious up bringing. Again, my back story is very complicated… When I met my husband I was in the process of joining the military and separating myself from the life I had come from. The only issue with my plan was meeting this man that I could not shake, that and well I also tore up my knee while snowboarding on the vacation that caused me to meet him. A year and a half later we ended up married and already planning our future together. Before we got married we found out that we were going to have issues starting a family of our own. Some would ask why you would stay if you knew that you would have issues creating a family. The answer for us was, it didn’t matter because we believed that we could get through anything together as long as we were both fighting for our future. We went through 3 years of treatments from scheduled intercourse, hormone boosters, IUI’s and then finally IVF. It was no walk in the park, the mental, emotional, financial and even relationship pain that it caused is something I would not wish on my worst enemy. The IVF treatment was extremely scary and painful even though it ended up being successful but the complications did not stop until months after she was born. I began this page as a project for school but after putting thought into it I wanted to put this blog out there to open up the topic of infertility and mom struggles for other women. I know that I am not alone in my story, I feel like this is a subject that we really don’t see to many place that are safe and comfortable for people to discuss these topics.
The Road of Motherhood…
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Stages of motherhood change in the blink of an eye.
Fighting for a family
From the beginning of our relationship we knew that we wanted a family together. We found out a before we were even married that we would struggle to conceive. Together we made the decision that we would do what it took to be able to create a family of our own together. We went through 3 years of treatments, from hormone pills, to scheduled timing, IUI’s and every crazy wives tale to help us succeed. Our last option was IVF and of course the one that would break the bank. Finally, we took the dive for IVF and ended up pregnant after the first transfer.
Putting in the work
After having over stimulations and other issues during the IVF treatment, my body was not done fighting. During the pregnancy, we went through a move, a job shift for my husband and my body was having a hard time adjusting to pregnancy. Spending most of my pregnancy sick and barely being able to work took a toll on life as I knew it. On top of the stress of everything in our lives, the COVID pandemic hit only complicating things more. With the entire world shutting down, it made it extremely scary to know that we were about to bring our baby into this craziness.
A beautiful storm
As should have been expected the birth was no walk in the park. 36 hours of labor, 6 of which pushing, forceps, a blood loss greater than half my blood count, malfunctioning epidural, emergency blood transfusion and not even being conscious long enough to remember my baby’s face. Her birth was the scariest thing I have done in my whole life and it was 24 hours before I could even comprehend what had happened. When the dust settled holding her in my arms was a dream that took me days to realize that it was real. Regardless of everything it took to have her, she is single handedly the best thing I have ever done in my life.